Who would have thunk it? I survived up and I am on week 10.
Who would have thunk it? ME!! I knew I would because there is just this side of me that says “okay let’s just see what happens”.
Well honestly, I just don’t see a lot happening.
Perhaps I am too close to me to see the changes.
But I have stop taking pictures of myself because it is too depressing to still see the love handles and the protruding gutt.
Yes, I do “feel” stronger but honestly, I did P90X to “look” stronger to “look ” LEANER.
I am disappointed in my body shape and I am disappointed that I said no to so many things that I wanted to do but sacrificed for this experience. I am disappointed that I feel so tired when I should feel invigorated.
But I guess, because I always try to look at the bright side. I am happy that God has provided me with a body that works well despite it’s flaws. I am happy that I am not disabled and have many freedoms that I noticed that those with disabilities do not. I am grateful sometimes for my life long pouch because it reminds me how blessed I am with food in my belly when other (including my ancestors who I grow much strength from) did not.
So for this and only this, I am glad for the experience. I will continue for the next 4 weeks, take a long week off and then jump on the Lean program. I don’t give up I just take breaks.
Wish me luck.
Tags: exercise, fitness, health, P90X, weightloss
