I can’t believe that it’s week 10.

Who would have thunk it? I survived up and I am on week 10.

Who would have thunk it? ME!! I knew I would because there is just this side of me that says “okay let’s just see what happens”.

Well honestly, I just don’t see a lot happening.

Perhaps I am too close to me to see the changes.

But I have stop taking pictures of myself because it is too depressing to still see the love handles and the protruding gutt.

Yes, I do “feel” stronger but honestly, I did P90X to “look” stronger to “look ” LEANER.

I am disappointed in my body shape and I am disappointed that I said no to so many things that I wanted to do but sacrificed for this experience. I am disappointed that I feel so tired when I should feel invigorated.

But I guess, because I always try to look at the bright side. I am happy that God has provided me with a body that works well despite it’s flaws. I am happy that I am not disabled and have many freedoms that I noticed that those with disabilities do not. I am grateful sometimes for my life long pouch because it reminds me how blessed I am with food in my belly when other (including my ancestors who I grow much strength from) did not.

So for this and only this, I am glad for the experience. I will continue for the next 4 weeks, take a long week off and then jump on the Lean program. I don’t give up I just take breaks.

Wish me luck.

Just finished Week 6

Hey All….

I just completed week 6. I can’t believe I am still doing P90X with all the vim and vigor of week 1.

I must say, I was feeling a little more reluctant than usual because I was going away to New York a little mini vacation. Who wants to exercise on vacation?

But I did it and actually doubled up on my exercises today. It was a strategy so that I could have 2 days off. I need the rest.

I did eat a little out of control while I was away, had a slice of pizza (gotta have that when  you are in NY) and had some candy. But I didn’t have the usual hot dog or pretzel even though I was DYING for some but I did indulge in a dessert. It had fruit on it but I didn’t eat the whole thing.

I am little worried though because I am in the justification stage or my journey. I always get there sometime somewhere where the old me starts peeking through. The one with the excuses, the one with the justifications. I am looking for support online, blogging more, looking at fitness magazines but when the alarm goes off in the morning, I am lacking the jumping out of bed feeling to work it out.

But I will just continue to press play and just take it one day at a time. I am a perfectionist so that;s what keeps me not missing a day.

Wish me luck.

Just about to end week 5

Last week I just felt REALLY FAT. Must have been the hormones.

But I just went through the paces of the Program. Really mixed it up a bit so that I was doing more of the weights at the beginning of the week when I had them available either at home or at the Hilton Garden Inn – thank you. And then all the cardio -ab ripper stuff at the end of the week.

Was planning on just chillin today to give myself a break but just knowing that I’d have to wake up to do Yoga X. I said at 7:30pm – lemme just get it over and done with. I hate it but the chair really does help. My wrist dont’ hurt as much, I’m sweating more. It’s exactly the kind of exercise I should be doing more of because it works me all over. I wish it just wasn’t 1.5 hrs though. That’s a lot of time out of my weekend. I’ve decided to researve Yoga X for the weekend so I won’t lose out on sleep during the week and that works for me. I am trying to adjust P90X for my lifestyle and so far so good.

Keep wishing me luck!